One of the things that has been tormenting me is the thought of going back to work. I go back on Monday, Feb. 25 and my heart physically hurts when I think about doing this. I have amazing students and friends at school, which makes it a little easier, but my heart is stuck to Eli and the thought of not being with him pains me. I know he will be fine, especially because he'll usually be with his dad, but it's still not me. Selfish? Conceited? Nope. It's just how mothers feel...well, it's how I feel.
The first week I go back to work Wes is out of town...the entire week. When I first heard about that, I cried and cried. I love thinking of Eli being at home with Wes, but Eli being stuck somewhere with people I don't know at some drop off daycare made me want to throw up. After crying and worrying and making myself crazy for several, several days...I finally started talking to people about it and laying that burden down. So many people came to my rescue and so many people wanted to come to my rescue! Hannah will be keeping him Monday thru Wednesday which I am totally excited about and then my aunt Sharon will be keeping him Thursday and Friday. I just found out that she was doing that today and as I type this, tears are still streaming down my face at my complete excitement and gratitude! God truly does rescue me...why oh why do I make myself suffer?
Wes' parents came down this weekend, which we loved! They hadn't seen Eli since Christmas and he's changed so much I know they were dying to see him again!
And today we went to church and he got to see Aunt Mere and Aunt Mandi! He's almost 7 weeks old! I can't believe it!
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Hang in there...
I cannot believe we have not met sweet Eli yet! please let me know a time we can bring some food and share a meal with you guys!
What a handsome little boy!!! I hadn't seen him yet!! I need to add you guys to my friends' list so I can keep up. So glad you left a comment :)
I was reading an article last night about businesses that let people bring their babies to work with them. You should encourage your school to do this.
oh stink. Hey, I will email you my cell phone number on your myspace page. I think you guys should come visit San Antonio this summer, stay with us, check everything out, our hubbies could meet and "jam together." hahah.. that made me sound so old! How are you doing? Eli is so PRECIOUS and handsome! I can't wait to meet him!
Leaving Brier for the first time was one of the hardest things I've ever done, but it did get easier each day, but I still have days I just want to stay home with him.
praying for you!
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