A few more Eli words

I wish I had remembered more words to ask him!! But I think you'll enjoy these!!

Pregnancy: Round 2

This pregnancy has been very similar to my pregnancy with Eli, but also really different. I don't know how to explain it in words, but here goes... 

With Eli, (by the way I'm a little over 13 weeks right now... I should probably get one of those ticker things) by this point I'd gained like 8 or 9 pounds. I never looked at the scale with him after the first trimester. I just didn't want to know. And I never knew how much I had gained until my doctor's appointment with this pregnancy. A different doctor was filling in for my doctor and ended up telling me that I gained around 50 pounds!!!! what?!?! ... see... that's why I didn't want to know. 

I lost all but 4 of those pounds.

This time, I've only gained between 1 pound and 1.5 pounds. I'm eating plenty and all of that, but that's a huge difference to me than the last time.

With Eli I was never sick just really tired. This time I haven't been sick but I can't stand anything that smells, even if it smells good. I just don't want to smell anything ever. Food used to taste a lot like cardboard with this pregnancy, but now it tastes good again. I've been really really tired with this baby also. But I just feel different somehow. I really don't know why or how exactly, I just do.

So my next appointment is June 11 and then I go for my next sono (where we can find out the sex) on July 8!!! SO exciting! We don't care what we have; we just want a healthy baby! It's already determined anyway!

I refuse to let 2 months go by!

I know... I'm terrible. Truly. But thank you for not forgetting me!! So, I'm not updating much right now. Truly there isn't much to say. But I wanted to share Eli's newest trick! Love you guys!

happy happy

Ok! Today I'm being much happier. Did you know if you make yourself smile, it can trick your mind into releasing serotonin that makes you feel happier? So... smiling I can do! ...the hair... not so much... Not fake. Don't worry... I'm really truly feeling happier today. Still achy, still tired, but much better. Thank you for your words of encouragement! 

So, you know how I'm starting a new website (I just had to retype that word 3 times because I kept typing wesbite... hmm...)? Well, I haven't been able to work on it too much yet, but I DID get a Canon 40D which just happens to be one of the most incredible cameras EVER! I'm learning how to use it and how to edit pictures... slowly... but I'm so excited about it! I'm not becoming a professional photographer so when my site gets something on it, keep that in mind. But I'm hoping that by the end of the summer I'll have enough stuff on there to share it with everyone and people can start using it! yay!

At work we have to give out awards to our top students in our classes. If you teach 100 kids or less, which I do, you can only choose 3 people to give an award to. ugghh... I hate choosing! There are always way more than 3 people who deserve the award. And then after the ceremony, the other kids in your class will hear who got the award and I'm sure some of them feel kind of strange as to why they didn't get chosen. Honestly I'm sure it's much more of an emotional strain on me than them, but I just would never want any of them to feel any like I didn't want to give them an award. I'm really not playing into that whole mindset of "everyone's a winner!" but there truly are A LOT of my students who work really hard that deserve to be recognized publicly. hmm... I love those kids.

feelings

Y'all.

This pregnancy is different. This pregnancy...

Well, I feel really achy pretty much all the time. In fact, there were two days when I felt totally ok and took another pregnancy test to make sure I was still pregnant. 

I feel like I am not being the best mom or wife right now. I'm always a little tired. I'm always a little achy. I feel like there isn't enough of me to go around. 

Today I'm feeling a little overwhelmed. Today I'm feeling like, how can I ever do this with two kids? 

After Eli was born I definitely had postpartum depression. God please rescue me from that again. What if I have that again? But this time I'll already have a child who needs his mom to be the best she can be? 

I think I just feel really really tired, which makes me feel really really overwhelmed. I wish I would blog more, it helps my mind get some sort of structure but friends I have just been so tired. 

I miss you guys. :)

Eli's word list

Sorry for the lack of blogging... this pregnancy is tiring!!!

Here's where we're at:

momma

dada

ooce (juice)

eeoy (Ebony)

nana (banana)

ball

dah (dog)

down

up

bye bye

hehoh (hello)

hi

gigi

mo (more)

no

psss (please... which is a rare word)

buh (book)

oyeessis (opposites... which is his FAVORITE book that we read 50 times a day, it's called God loves opposites)

ba (bath)

tiss (this)

dang... I thought there were two more that I counted but I can't remember them! 

His latest thing is taking his own diapers to the trash. It is awesome!! This child understands pretty much everything you say. kind of scary... 

"The details" (as requested)

So as I've mentioned, we decided that this was the month we wanted to start trying. Our main reason was because Wes travels basically the entire summer and even though it would be great to have the baby during the summer for a teacher schedule, I just don't want to have a 2 year old a newborn by myself. 

The baby (as far as the internet tells me) is going to be due December 4. Which is the second reason we wanted to get pregnant this month. If I can have our sweet new baby at a little past 38 weeks like we did with Eli, then the baby will be born the weekend before Thanksgiving which gives me a whole other week to count towards leave without using any of my almost nonexistent days! yay! 

When we got pregnant with Eli we weren't planning or anything like that. So this was a new experience for us. We feel overwhelmingly blessed that we got pregnant the first month because people have told us that it doesn't often happen that way. But, we believe that God's timing is sovereign for everyone so whenever it happens that's when it's supposed to happen! 

I knew that yesterday was the first day I could take one of those early response tests. So, I jump out of bed at 6:29 (you know... the whole wake up a minute before your alarm goes off kind of thing) and grab the test and head to the bathroom! I think I almost pulled out every single eyelash (which is what I do when I'm anxious) waiting for those eternal 3 minutes to pass! Then... hour glass flashing... hour glass flashing... hour glass flashing... PREGNANT! YAY!!! 

So. I'm basically 3 weeks a long. It's still a teeny tiny little sac that's about to start growing a placenta. Incredible.

You guys are so awesome. Thank you for your sweet sweet wishes! I love sharing this with you!