Thursday, December 27, 2007


I honestly don't even know where to begin to describe how much I loved this Christmas. I mean, Wes and I have a CHILD! It's just so fantastic! And sitting at the Christmas Eve service with my little family (well...actually my huge entire extended family) and hearing about the birth of Jesus and just thinking about Mary and all of her was just so overwhelming...beautifully overwhelming. There is no way to predict to how you are going to feel about your baby at first. I know people who have experienced the "baby blues" and people who didn't feel that connection right at first and then people who just cried and cried the moment they saw their baby. But the truth is, no matter what you feel, there is something inside us that just connects, whether we recognize it or not...even though it may come out in some random emotional form.

I really cannot fathom how people had babies in Bible times. I am so thankful for modern medicine! And I know there are tons of ladies out there that give birth naturally...I am just not one of them, and thank you Jesus I'm not because Eli probably wouldn't have made it. But it really did make me reflect on Mary and how she must have felt towards Jesus after giving birth naturally...haha...and I obviously don't mean from the comforts of a birthing center or your own home. I guess what I'm saying is, I really loved this Christmas. I think it brought Christmas to a deeper level to me. You may not have to have a baby to take it to that level, but for me it did. I just still feel the overwhelming favor of God. It makes me want to crawl to His feet in humility to thank Him for such a perfect gift.

My family and Wes' family all were able to see our sweet son! That was so fun for us because it totally makes you feel so proud as a parent (I still can't believe I'm a parent...haha...) to see people "ooo" and "ahhh" over your baby. There were some super cute pics taken of him that I don't have yet because they are on my brother's camera...but here are some that I do have:


Christine said...

I also know that you have been able to experience the unbelievable sacrifice and love that your first mother had for you ... still has for you. You can truly "get it" now, that such a love always exists ... with every single heartbeat. Makes you realize that you've been so passionately thought of and desperately loved every single day of your life. It's beautiful, even in all the pain.

Ohhhhhh ... and then just wait until Easter. You and God will have a connection like you've never had in your life. Your first Easter season as a parent is earth shattering.

Well, that and Mother and Father's Day. The first year we had Mackenzie, Michael and I both wrote our parents pages and pages of mush and thank-you's and understanding that we just couldn't fully comprehend until we were completely responsible for our own child.

There just aren't Hallmarks for that sort of thing, ya' know?!?

Please don't ever let up on the pictures. That kid is so stinkin', crazy adorable!!

Chelsey's Chatter said...

Yay! You're back.. and you're a MOM!! That is so awesome! I'm so glad that ya'll had a wonderful Christmas~I can't wait for the day when I'm in your sweet shoes! Keep the pictures coming and give that precious baby a kiss for me! :0)

Susan said...

You have the most beautiful baby I have ever seen. I love to read about how much you love him and how much he has changed every part of you in such a short amount of time. You are so inspiring.

The Mellberg Family said...

So true, you have so much more respect and sorrow for Mary once you become a mom. Glad you guys had a wonderful first Christmas

under the Eagle's wings said...

That is too amazingly cool and probably very true. I'm so glad you had a beautiful Christmas with your new little one! God Bless you guys!!

Chelsey's Chatter said...

I know you're busy, well being a mom and everything, but we need an updated post (including pictures) on baby Eli! Miss you!:0)

Jennifer-Colley said...

I am missing your updates. I know you are a busy momma though!