I honestly don't even know where to begin to describe how much I loved this Christmas. I mean, Wes and I have a CHILD! It's just so fantastic! And sitting at the Christmas Eve service with my little family (well...actually my huge entire extended family) and hearing about the birth of Jesus and just thinking about Mary and all of her feelings...it was just so overwhelming...beautifully overwhelming. There is no way to predict to how you are going to feel about your baby at first. I know people who have experienced the "baby blues" and people who didn't feel that connection right at first and then people who just cried and cried the moment they saw their baby. But the truth is, no matter what you feel, there is something inside us that just connects, whether we recognize it or not...even though it may come out in some random emotional form.
I really cannot fathom how people had babies in Bible times. I am so thankful for modern medicine! And I know there are tons of ladies out there that give birth naturally...I am just not one of them, and thank you Jesus I'm not because Eli probably wouldn't have made it. But it really did make me reflect on Mary and how she must have felt towards Jesus after giving birth naturally...haha...and I obviously don't mean from the comforts of a birthing center or your own home. I guess what I'm saying is, I really loved this Christmas. I think it brought Christmas to a deeper level to me. You may not have to have a baby to take it to that level, but for me it did. I just still feel the overwhelming favor of God. It makes me want to crawl to His feet in humility to thank Him for such a perfect gift.
My family and Wes' family all were able to see our sweet son! That was so fun for us because it totally makes you feel so proud as a parent (I still can't believe I'm a parent...haha...) to see people "ooo" and "ahhh" over your baby. There were some super cute pics taken of him that I don't have yet because they are on my brother's camera...but here are some that I do have: